The last couple weeks have been a bit of blurr. I bought a car (yeah baby!) and since have been driving all over the place and LOVING it. Seriously, the feeling of getting behind the wheel and knowing you can go anyplace you want is incredible. I love to roll the window down, crank the music and just drive....
(until I pay for gas, then I dont love the car as much)
My feelings are a bit mixed now that the time has come to leave Ontario. On one hand I am super excited to get on the road and start a new adventure! To be honest, Im actually surprised at how much Im looking forward to having a stable place to call home, at least for a few months. Living out of my suitcase has started getting old and I am seriously sleep deprived from crashing on couches for the last few weeks (LOL While couches can definitely substitute as a bed in the short term, Ive learned that they really are designed only for sitting). Im also looking forward to having consistent internet available: I have been haunting the public libraries and starbucks and lately have been driving around Scarborough with my laptop open looking for unsecure wireless networks (Im in my car right now actually....I think the house Im parked outside might think Im stalking them). On the other hand Im sad to be leaving my family again, esp my baby niece Madison, and leaving the friends I only just have been able to catch up with....actually I didnt get a chance to see a lot of them... :( I also have been hanging out with a few people I wish I could stick around and hang out with more...
One thing I have come to realise over the past few weeks is that, no matter where I end up, my heart will always be here in Ontario. I have never really thought of any one place as home before, but I feel truly connected here. Michael Ignatieff was recently attacked because after all his time away, he said what he missed most about Canada was Algonquin Park. I totally understand. A part of me will always be watching the waves at the Rouge beach....camping in the interiors of Algonquin Park....paddling the Ottawa.... To me, these are places that I can be gone for for years but will always love and feel I belong.
My plans have changed a bit for my drive--think Im going to stick to driving through Canada rather than cross the border. I have already once almost been denied entry to the states because I couldnt prove that I would return to canada ( the "no job, no home" thing) and I have a feeling that adding a car packed full of all my stuff wont help. After travelling for so long, I also feel more comfortable with the idea of dealing with an accident, ticket, broken down car, etc. in my own country. I figure I can make the drive in an easy 3 days...my plan is to camp out in my car when Im tired, map out where the big fitness centres (goodlife, etc.) are along the way to shower and get some exercise and snack out of a cooler between diners. Im going to check out a Lonely Planet Canada tomorrow to find some fun places to detour along the way. There are a bunch of really great parks and stuff Id like to check out, but I dont know how safe it is to go hiking on my own in the middle of nowhere, Manitoba...
Baby Madison!

